Week 3 Update

Traditionally, I have a really bad week early on in the diet plan. Well, this was it. The bad week. The week that made me mad, sad, angry, frustrated and hungry all week. It all started with a sinus infection coupled with 2 ear infections. Treatment consisted of a shot of steroids, followed by a 5 day course of oral steroids, and a 10 day Z-pak. The steroids made me so hungry, and so angry. I have never felt this way before.  I have never been so filled with so much rage. One day, while we were stuck in a traffic jam, I almost jumped out of the car because I wanted to hit something. I was so mad because we were just sitting there. I wanted to hit the car next to us, I wanted to punch out the fire truck that passed us. I wanted to bang my fists against the wall. It was a weird sensation...I wanted to do all these things, badly. But the more logical sane side of my brain struggled, then finally won control. I was able to calm down. Thank goodness.

I don't know how athletes abuse those things. I understand that they are wanting to be bigger and stronger, but if they affect them like they did me, and fill them with uncontrollable rage, I don't know how they function. It was a very scary couple of days.

The other bad side effect of the steroids is the uncontrollable hunger. I was hungry 24 hours a day. All week. At work, I do ok, because I take my food with me, but in the car, and at home last weekend, I gave in to temptation. I was alone in the car, I was alone at home. So I could cheat and no one would know, right. I would know, but that was ok. So Saturday, Sunday and Monday I splurged a bit. Pizza, popcorn, Diet Dr. Peppers, chips, homemade Calzones. They were all so yummy. But I cannot fall back into this trap. I will not fall back into this trap. Back to work on Tuesday, and back on the plan. I feel better already.

Weight lost this week. +0.6 lbs
Total weight lost: 12.0 lbs.


You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through- Rosalyn Carter.